I love all my jobs being a wife, mom and writer but it’s safe to say I have grown to love sharing them with you the most. And honestly, that’s kind of weird. When I started this blog three and a half years ago, I never would have imagined I would come to truly love this community of women. Women can be difficult, catty and…scary! Melanie Dale even wrote a book about it.
But as scary as women have felt at times, and as sure as I was that I would never want to serve in that capacity, I look back and know I was wrong. I was wrong because my fear wasn’t really about all the other women around me — but the deep, uncertain fear that was in me. I didn’t know who I was. I wasn’t sure I was enough.
Do you know the biggest thing that contributed to the change not only within me but also around me? Stepping out, showing up and doing it anyway. One day God placed a call on my heart to share who I was with whoever wanted to listen and slowly I began to realize I wasn’t alone. We’re all the same. We all want to be known, loved and certain that we’re enough. We’re all afraid of the very same things.
So for whatever it’s worth to you today, I want to share 5 things I know (today) for sure:
- I’m not sure of anything: No matter how stubborn I am, or how deep I dig my heels in, God never fails to remind me that I’m not in charge.
- I continue to evolve: Whatever I feel today I may not feel tomorrow, and while some people think that’s a bad thing, I think it’s a good thing! If I’m exactly the same person a year from now as I am today, then all that means is I’ve stopped growing.
- Some things stay the same: We are who we are. As much as I want to fix all my broken, bad-behaving parts, and as often as I try, some things will always be the same. God made some of us stronger, faster, more fierce or naturally humble. On a sliding scale, we’re better in some areas and worse in others. It’s okay. We need to stop trying so hard to change, and just embrace who we are.
- God uses all of it: Sometimes I’m a mess. Most days I barely change out of my pajamas and I most assuredly consider leggings pants. Sorry Jen Hatmaker. But regardless of all the times I fumble, screw up or
hypotheticallysend a message to the wrong person, God redeems it all. What a beautiful thing it is to be part of a story that is SO MUCH BIGGER than us.
- Show up: Listen. By ourselves we can do nothing, but we can do all things through Him. You feel a pressing to serve? Serve. You feel called to teach? Teach. You love to create? Create. God doesn’t need you to know what you’re doing, or to be qualified, ready or even able. He just needs you to be willing. Show up and let Him surprise you.
After all these years I am certain that there are very few things I am sure of, but I do know this: Your life, your story and the message you bear is written inside you for a reason. Embrace it! Learn from it. Lean in to the gift of grace that was freely given to you so that you might find hope and peace in the midst of your story — and then the courage to give it away.