She’s sitting at a table lost in thought. I watch her for a moment before she looks up to find my face. We haven’t seen each other in months and yet it’s like no time has passed.
The truest friendships are like that. They span the length and test of time to reconnect in the space of a single heartbeat.
The instant our eyes meet, I see.
Suffering. Caught in the shadows of joy.
Though her eyes light up, and her beautiful smile betrays the pain, I know.
Time has not been kind.
In between the pages of laughter are the sentences that stop us still. The ones that can never be erased. Throughout our life, death comes to us all. In one form or another. Our marriage, children, our notions of security, dreams and letting go of things not meant for us.
But stars can’t shine without darkness. Souls can’t surrender without first being broken.
I admire people who choose to shine in the midst of darkness. In the midst of grief and anger, alive and well.
It’s a leap of faith when we accept that what we do not see is greater than what is happening to us. Holding out hope that what we cannot know is better than what we had planned.
For the darkness threatens to swallow us whole. It lures us to silence when our heart needs to speak. It tempts us to act when we need only be still.
Faith tells us that in the midst of our darkness He is still bearing light.
For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made His light shine
in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God
displayed in the face of Christ.
2 Corinthians 4:6
Her deep soul ache spills from her lips like water over a dam. She can barely speak the words that have pierced the most tender places of a mother’s heart.