I keep hearing this new buzzword: reinvent.
Everyone’s talking about how to reinvent yourself. Be reinvented.
What comes to mind when you hear this word?
If I’m honest, it’s irritating me.
Because there’s something implied in the word reinvent. As if what we currently are isn’t enough.
The definition itself means to remake or redo completely; to make as if for the first time.
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve wished I was different. Prayed God would’ve made me greater. Stronger. Someone or something else.
A little more lighthearted. A little less affected. I longed for different experiences, roads not taken. Different strengths and far fewer weaknesses.
But God gives us people to teach us who we are. He gives us heartache to test where we’ve been.
I’ve had friends over my lifetime that have hurt me deeply and left me for naught. But I’ve had exceedingly more who have taught me what it means to be great.
I’ve had many angels who’ve come alongside me and ones I’m thankful to walk with daily, but my friends Kelly and Courtney brought me back to my faith.
It’s difficult to pinpoint what makes them so special, but they are bright lights in a dark world.
They don’t try to shine, they just do.
They don’t think twice about welcoming a new girl, a little rough around the edges, experimenting with life and her identity and finding her place. They don’t judge her, exclude her or make her feel unworthy of what they have. They welcome her. They love her. They give her a home, a bible, a church, a family.
In so many, many ways. In over a decade of knowing and loving them, I’ve never seen a moment where they considered not dancing. Where they considered sitting out while the music still played.
I remember when they were new to me and I called my mom in both pride and humility that they chose me. That they wanted me; to be my friend. I longed to describe them and I couldn’t. I said how much I wished I could be more like them.
More bright. Shiny. Open, welcoming, loving, fearless, uninhibited, free. Caring less about what others thought of my dancing and more about the dancing.
And though they are real, and as flawed and vulnerably dazzling as you and I…they are beautifully bright shining lights.
But so are you.
And so am I.
We each shine brightly in a unique and beautiful way. We don’t need to compare or compete with one another. We don’t need to reinvent ourselves or be reinvented.
As if someone else could know how we could be a better us. That we could fit into someone else’s mold and do their same job. Or do it better.
As if God, in His wisdom and mastery could’ve made a mistake.
Accepting who we are with all of our flaws – our strengths and our weaknesses – is what makes us real.
We were created to reach someone only we can reach, for a purpose only we can serve, for a time such as this.
Some of us have wicked wit and humor, incredible dance skills, a voice like an angel. A servant’s heart, an artist’s touch, a graceful charm, a merciful heart. A peacemaker, a truth teller, a relentless dreamer. A passionate pursuer, entertainer, life liver. Life giver.
I pray that I can be bold enough to stand with you at the throne of grace with a thankful heart. That we could join together in gratitude for all that we are and all that we are not.
I fall so far short of the woman I desire to be in my heart and my mind and I wish so many days that I could be different. Better.
And this word…reinvent…has made me realize that acceptance is the breath of our life. It is the magic that allows us to be us in this moment. Who we are. And let that be enough.
It doesn’t mean we stop desiring more. That we stop striving, dreaming, hoping, wishing, working and praying. That we stop stepping out in faith before we are ready.
Right now, today, it is enough. You are every bit enough.
So you go ahead and dream, my friend. But don’t change you. Don’t reinvent you. Because you is dazzling. You is beautiful. You is enough. You were made enough. You have always been enough. Let’s all be great.
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