Are you in a season of life where you feel alone, lost, confused or things are just hard? No matter what you do or how hard you work – no matter how many times you apologize or try to make it better – it just isn’t?
Times when it seems like there is a really logical answer but no matter how logically you attempt to implement it, it creates more problems and confusion?
Perhaps things just don’t make sense.
My grandma used to always tell us: You can’t make sense out of nonsense.
I miss her.
She was strong and soft and brutal and wise. You always knew where you stood with grandma, she called a spade a spade. She always said that too…
Interestingly, the times I feel most lost and confused – the times when nothing seems to make sense – are the times I see God most clearly.
Perhaps it’s because I tend to tune out the world and turn in to my self. I tuck into the fetal position and pull back from everyone and most everything but God.
To everyone else I’m alone. But to Him, I’m the most open and desperate: searching for His voice, His whisper, His tender love and kindness.
It’s the gift of sorrow that leads us closer to Him. I find when I’ve lost my sense of reason I go looking for His and I find Him everywhere. You see, God is in the details.
In the perfectly shaped heart rock found in the driveway, the prayer stone lost in the bottom of a bag now found. Sunsets and clear starry skies, the song that just came on the radio or the message from an old friend at precisely the moment you needed to hear her voice.
It never ceases to amaze me how when I look for God I see Him everyday. In the ordinary extraordinary ways that seem to be crafted just for me. So personal and timely they can only be known by a loving Father. Not coincidence, not chance, not just my lucky day.
Intimately designed. Lovingly planned. Mercifully given.
For such a time as this.
It is moments like these, when I’m so intimately in tune with this awesome God who cares so personally for me that I realize He is there in my every day. In moments of heartache I see His kindness so quickly that I know that in the happiest ones and the oh-so-ordinary ones, if I were willing to slow down, pause and look, He would be there.
He is always there.
We serve a God who is good. A God who knows the deepest desires of your heart and longs to give them to you. Not the desires you may think you want – the ones so tied to our earthly shelters – but the ones He planted in you at the beginning of time. The ones that don’t make sense here.
Before the foundation of the earth He made your heart to beat differently from any other heart.
And He longs to bring it into rhythm. The one meant for you.
Where your tears meet the quickening of your pulse. The place your heart beats strong.
Are you in a season of confusion or heartache? Do you feel lost and alone?
Look for Him. He is there in every sunrise, the wind whistling in the trees. The way the sun meets the sand and the mountain touches the sky. He made it all for you. Seek Him. Tune out the world and turn in to the beating of your heart and He will be found. And He will rescue you.
For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart. I will be found by you and will bring you back from captivity. Jeremiah 29:11-14