I’ve lived too much of my life in the punishing grip of another’s tightly clenched fist. Holding on, waiting for, and longing to be set free.
Wishing and praying and hoping and dreaming I would have done something differently. Said something more perfectly.
Begging and offering and asking for forgiveness, never given. Never enough.
Time has passed, life has changed, the day is new.
And still I’m held.
The grip of unforgiveness is almost too much to bear. It’s bitter roots tangle and twist and distort until what was once sure, is now unrecognizable.
The thrill of it’s crippling power always gives way to pride, anger, malice and contempt.
It’s only sure ending is the breaking of the bearer. For the hand will open and the caged will be set free.
He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children.” Revelation 21:6-7
This life is hard. Relationship is hard. We are human and we fail. We have failed, we will fail, and we will continue to fail until the day that we die. It’s the beauty and the burden of relationship. And unless we are willing to accept our own failures we can never accept the failures of another.
Relationship is hard but it’s the only thing that is real. It’s painful and it’s beautiful and it’s messy and broken but there is redemption and glory and grace by an Almighty God who says we are WORTHY despite our shortcomings, and in spite of our failures. We are holy and forgiven and clothed in dignity.
If you are held in the grip of another’s unforgiveness, decide today to set your own self free. If you find yourself unwilling to unclench your fist and forgive someone for a grievance against you, find out what you’re getting from this perceived control. How is it serving you?
If you have done everything you can think of and the person isn’t ready or willing to be forgiving, it’s time you forgive yourself. It was never really between you and them anyway, it was always only between you and God.
He is the Beginning and He is the End. Set your sights higher than this earthly place, and see that He set you free from your very first breath. Now all you have to do is fly.