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Hope : a revolutionary patience

As I sit here in a coffee shop, pandora singing praise music through the speakers in my ears, I have writer’s block. So many thoughts and emotions swimming through my head: circumstances, hurts I see in others around me, burdens weighing heavily on sweet, tender hearts. Perceptions so different and yet, hurts remain. And my words seem so inadequate. Sentences refuse to form. Empty. Stillness in the space carved out to write.

And so I consider the message of that silence. The weight of broken relationship; hurts and burdens too heavy to carry. When friendships derail, when relationships aren’t what you thought, or hoped, or desired. Deliberate unkindness, and looking the other way. Unforgiveness. Pain so visible and yet ignored. Delicate truth crushed by the violent wake of pride, anger and defensiveness. The times and space where confusion and heartache reign.

Confusion is a lonely place. Deafeningly quiet.

An emptiness longing for truth…for a lie…anything to replace the void. A gaping hole in our hearts calling out to be filled. And we suffer impatience.

In a life so full of instant gratification, we’re unaccustomed to waiting. Allowing God to tend to our hearts while truth slowly filters in. For time to show us the lesson deeply imbedded in the trial. We struggle to find an answer, any answer, so we can understand. But sometimes there is no understanding, there just is.

And so we must choose hope.

Because hope is a revolutionary patience. It begins in the darkest places. The times we feel utterly lost and alone. Where confusion reigns.

And instead of shrinking down in the spiral of self doubt and discouragement, we speak truth to the lies that come for our peace. We find the strength to stand, cradled in a stubborn hope that believes if we show up, if we do the right thing, the dawn will come.

That light will break onto the horizon, and the warmth of it’s truth will penetrate our soul. Will fill us with peace. Will teach us to be patient. Will show us that we do not face this world alone and that we are better for the heartache.

We are comforted by the truth that this is not our home.

this is not our home

So that your faith may be proved genuine. The greatest desire of my heart: to be genuine, real, true and authentic. Sincere. That my life would match my heart; that my heart would match my faith.

Our life is a constant refining process where we are stripped of ourselves, stripped of the things we cling to in this life. Health, relationships, possessions, and security can be taken in a moment. Caught unaware.

Without faith, we are left in confusion, disbelief and heartache. We fall prey to the lies and doubt competing to fill the void in our heart.

So we must turn to hope. We must turn to faith: the belief in something for which there is no proof.  With souls made for eternity, sometimes it breaks our hearts to live in this world.

In the midst of difficult circumstances, heartache and heartbreak, I pray you remember your eternal inheritance. This is not our home.

In the deafening loneliness of confusion I pray we find the courage to stand, united in faith. In hope. Filled with a revolutionary patience to believe in what we cannot see, and to know we are enough. In this moment, this trial, this life, we are enough.

So much more than enough.

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  • Tina April 19, 2013, 1:37 pm

    Beautifully said…. So happy to have stumbled upon your blog:)

    • Tammy April 21, 2013, 3:27 am

      i’m so happy you’re here Tina!

  • Sarah Michielson-Knipfer April 19, 2013, 2:25 pm

    God loves us because of and despite our imperfections and He loves that we CHOOSE to love him. Love is the universal desire and hope that every living being seeks and searches for every moment. Humble your heart and remember to let God’s love shine out of our hearts. Fill your mind with God’s Word rightly divided so it pours out uncontrollably. Why should someone so Righteous and Perfect love such a wretch like me? It is because He is so perfect and so Righteous that he CAN love us. Perfect love, Perfect Grace, Perfect sacrifice.

  • Miette April 20, 2013, 2:05 pm

    …allowing God to tend to our hearts while truth slowly filters in… Wow. Your words are always like a caption to the living photo of my life, Tammy.

    I can only offer thanks and praise to Him for keeping a smile on my face and a spring in my step in the midst of the trials of my life. And I can really only be a cup-half-full kinda girl with all the hope He pours into me. He sustains me and shows me what truly matters. I don’t know how people walk this life without Him. Must be lonely and scary.

    Thanks for the inspiration! Enjoy the weekend with your beautiful family!

    • Tammy April 21, 2013, 3:27 am

      i’m so glad miette. praise Him. praying over your heart during whatever trials you face. thanking Him in advance for His faithfulness. He will see you through. xoxo

  • Rychelle April 20, 2013, 6:28 pm

    “allowing God to tend to our hearts while truth slowly filters in….. sometimes there is no understanding. there just is. and so we must choose hope.” Oh my friend… So rich and piercing to the marrow of my bones. Choosing today to sit with what is in my life before my God. knowing.hoping.believing. HE will settle me. Draw me in. Wash me over. hold me close. Infuse his truth and filter lies…hold me here Lord Until I become like the psalmist found in 131… simply contented by your presence. Amen!

    • Tammy April 21, 2013, 3:26 am

      amen, my friend. praying over your heart & mind. for peace. joy. patience. hope. He can do what He says He can do. He IS doing it. believe. xoxo

  • Marica April 27, 2015, 9:31 pm

    I’m so glad I came across you blog, it was very timely. Your words spoke to my heart and I’m sure many others. It’s evident God used you as a vessel to speak his words of comfort. I will pay/ pray it forward and pass this blessing along to others

    Stay blessed!

  • Jan February 29, 2016, 2:44 pm

    Thank you so much for this. Beautifully said!

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