last year i chose a single word to guide my 2013: renew.
as the year went on, i thought perhaps i should have chosen an easier word.
because God decided to honor my choice. test my resolve. challenge my firm belief that through hardship we are refined. molded and crafted and made to be more fully the person He created us to be from the start. this past year i was presented me with many tests to challenge my conviction, my steadfastness and my faith.
there were times i felt i was waking around inside out. everything i came in contact with hurt. deep.
pain of many years trapped just beneath the surface of my life, so close to breaking free. and yet afraid to come out.
2013 was not an easy year. not by a long shot.
but just as it was heavy it was light.
i believe so much in one of my favorite poets, kahlil gibran’s words: “sorrow carves the heart to contain more joy.” to the extent that we experience sorrow and grief and pain we will experience wonder and beauty and joy.
it’s the flip side of the coin.
filled with extraordinary moments, incredible joy and supernatural peace…this year marked the birth of freedom from decade old chains. a new beginning of sorts, a beautiful ending in a way.
looking back, renew was a good choice. a hard one, but so worth it.
this year my word is: intention.
that my life would match my heart, and my heart would match my faith.
we don’t get to plan everything; some say that’s when God laughs at us. but there are small things and small ways we can chart our lives with intention. that the course we take, the things we do, the words we say, the time we spend and the way we love, would be the result of a thing intended.
a plan executed. a life well lived.
this year i wrote a personal mission statement instead of resolutions. it’s my life map to living this year with intention based on what is most important to me. what’s most important to our family.
what’s your word?